Color's of Autumn

At one point in your life I was everything you wanted, I'm not what you want because I didn't fit the image in your mind.

I didn't understand? I understood clearly but perhaps it was you who didn't take the time to understand me.

 I was needy and clingy? I was only needing your love and affection.

 I wasn't angry but hurt for your lack of ability to know how to care for me when the only things I wanted from you were simple!

There was nothing wrong with me, I'm a normal person who has passion and enjoys being independent and a strong motive to stand for what I believe in and the things that I want in life.

 I was never complicated, I was just more of a strong woman than you wanted, you wanted someone to agree and to do every thing you wanted in order for you to feel strong you controlled every thing that I liked or wanted to do that made me happy and threatened to get your way!

I may have had some issues in the past but they don't define me my past is my past and its not my present the only thing that made me sick was your constant criticism and negativity.

 I may not be as educated as you wanted me to be but I'm not stupid and there are things in education that you don't learn in school like, good manners, kindness, and humbleness.

I may not know how to sew or draw or be a chef , but I do have a talent its called my voice I have a voice and I like to use it to speak for people and to defend people I do have a skill that you will never be able to have which is having a way in dealing with people and how to understand the life and to not take everything negatively and to look at things positively.

I may not have the body of a model but I try my best and tried my best to look good to you in the end it wasn't enough.

The more I sit and think about all the things I know the mistakes I made but I'm a humble person and will never leave out the details of my mistakes that I made I take full responsibility in the faults in my life and never  blame someone else for the mistakes of my actions... I have been through a lot in my life I have faced a lot of obstacles that maybe you couldn't have handled as I did  but I am strong and I got through them I had good people in life to teach me how to handle those obstacles and I also had bad people who taught me how I don't want to be, I am grateful for the things I have I may not be rich or have a job that will make me a millionaire but I have a job that I'm happy with and I can be a normal person I am happy with my life maybe not with my current situation but I'm happy and content with where I am, all I can say is I'm perfectly imperfect and I am happy with who I am and I hope I can only improve to be a better person than I was yesterday!