Sometimes I wonder what we would have become if we had never departed from each other’s lives. Would we had fixed our problems or would the problems still remain?! Would we still fight or tried to make it work for the sake of our children?!
I look back to reflect in the mistakes I’ve made sometimes I wish that this was just all a bad dream waiting for wake up or I’m in a coma fighting for my life to come back to make things right.
Sometimes I miss us I miss the happy memories we did share together the children we made together the family we once were but somehow we let things divide us I tried my best to make you happy but it just was never enough or maybe it was the fact we never really looked to see the effort each of us put into trying to make each back other happy.
I don’t miss the fights the small triggers that would make you angry I always deeply wonder if I was truly the problem maybe I was maybe we both were after all it takes two to make things work.
I know you’re happy now I am too at least for the most part I finally found someone who thinks I’m worthy of gold and who’s never belittled me for suffering from a mental illness he’s brought the best in me for the most part all though I still tend to be stubborn but I suppose that’s a defense mechanism of being hurt to many times and not wanting to get hurt again by letting my guard down.
I still have a lot to work through and to overcome we may never know what we could have become if we had remained together I know for sure I wouldn’t have faced all this struggle that I have but In the end it was for the best to depart separate ways I just wish the problems would stop you live your life happily and I live mine and peacefully coparent with one another.
I know you maybe never read this but I wish nothing but the best for you and your life even though you may not feel mutual but I hope one day we will find common grounds with one another Sahar.-
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